Jealousy

It felt like this before,
Just like in highschool,
All those special moments,
That i live for,
Will belong to someone else.
Toe-curling happiness,
Warm nights,
A smile over dinner,
Just a few things...
I dont want to believe...
That its over,its done,
that now i'll just file you away,
In the back of my mind,
But thats how it always works,
Oh Gods, dont let me be right,
I dont want it to be like that!
Not another one gone forever,
For me to cry about eternally,
Another scar.
I pray to all, every day,
I wish with all my heart, every night,
I give it my all.
Is it all in vain?
Another love lost,
I dont believe in love anymore.